Prac... 2 weeks more to go..

Time flies... Very soon, I know I am going to finish my prac...

Today I am going to reflect what I have done this week.

Basically, last week I was being a lil bit of a lazy bum.. and this week, I am like a workaholic. Start at 8.30am everyday, and finish at 6pm.

It is a stressful week.. because one of the challenges I have is that I need to recruit people for my focus group...sorta like a survey thingy.

This means, I will need to get myself out there and talk to angmos that I do not know... that really freak me out. So many negative thoughts running through my mind... Shiat.. how am I going to do this? How am I suppose to get enough people to participate in my focus group? There are tonnes of things that I need to do for
this project. To be honest, it is kinda lot of work for a single person to do.

So, undoubtedly.. I am stressed out... I am even worrying about how am I suppose to finish this project on time. But I know that I need to get it done. So I made a determination... to cross over my comfort zone to make this happen.

I started recruiting people on Wednesday. Today, I was freaking out. I went to the mall and just talk to random people at the food court. There are some ppl who rejected me with their poker face. To be honest, that do not make me feel good. But I kept goin, although my heart in pounding upon my chest.

Finally, I did get a number of positive responses. In fact, I got about 10 people who expressed their interest to come. It was quite a good job according to my supervisor... However, I was escorted out by the security... Coz I am not suppose to hand out flyers/ promoting surveys on private premises. So that did not make me feel that good either.

I knew I need to recruit more people to come to the focus group on Thursday. So this time, I rang up TAFE College and spoke to the campus manager there. Haha... I do not need to explain the struggle that I went through plucking up my courage talking to him. Anyways, I got a positive response from him that I am allowed to come over to the campus to promote my focus group.

I actually chanted 2 and half hours for it. Coz I am determined to challenge my situation. I want to overcome my fear, by not letting it get to me. And it turned out, that I am doing a fairly good job as well.

And today, I went to Manning Hospital. This time, responses from people aren't that great. But I managed to get through to some people who also expressed interest to come; though most of them are unsure when are they able to make it.

From this experience, I do feel that I am a person who need stress to move forward. Actually it does make me work harder... rather than sitting there and doing nothing. Although it is a struggle, but I finally experienced finding joy while struggling... which is very rewarding.

And I know there are heaps of challenges and struggles awaiting me if I want to be a good dietitian; and also if I wanted to stay in Australia.

I appreciate that all these struggles are opportunities for me to grow. Yes it is tough... But I am enjoying it now.. I am surfing through it...

Now all I need to do is to keep up the momentum... and finish this project nicely as I wanted it to be : )

That is for now...