Me..just me

Today is Saturday.. Sunny day....

But, things are not in place... everything seems to go wrong today for me
I was angry of somebody... because she forget to ask me to go somewhere...
But it was ridiculous, isn't it? Yes it was. So I thought.

I went to grocery shopping alone.. carrying loads of stuff... still at the state of anger... And so I thought. ' why am I always surrounded by ppl who are inconsiderate? What have I done?'

I struggled to go to buddhist meeting today. Was late coz i missed the bus.
Then, I came bac.. And tell myself to re-determine. No matter how am I feeling at the moment.. I have the ability to turn things around... for things to be the way it should be.

Not allowing the environment to control me... but me, being in charge of my environment.

Uncertainty and fear....Need to take control and not let these emotions control me.

Must conquer obstacles I face right now... And put all unhappiness behind...

Need to strive for the happiness of others and myself...

And so I thought... to re-determined is the only thing I can do right now.. to bring out the best in me, and the best in other ppl.

Nambucca

Just finished my first week of food service prac in Macksville,Nambucca...
Had lunch in one of the cafes here on Saturday... Grilled Chicken Burger...It had a weird aftertaste... Coz it was a stale chicken... Asked the waiter to change another one.. But still ...there isn't much difference... i did not manage to finish it though.. In short, the food sucks....

Then We wei and I went for a walk after that along Nambucca river... I bought a banana milkshake.. Again.. it does not taste that great... watery consistency in a giant papercup....managed to finish half.. and the rest goes in the bin...

We wei was talking about how she would enjoy living and working here...

My gosh... it is like a dead town to me... You will rarely see any youths here..Plus, the food here sucks... with no fancy cafes to hang out in weekends.I seriously can't see myself working in a rural area in the future... It must either be Sydney or Melbourne.

I went to the river side again today for a walk coz I was freezing in the nursing quarters... listening to my Ipod... Walked over the bridge... Still not too bad...

Can't wait to go back to newcastle on Thursday. Hope my food service prac will go on fine..

Then I need to be mentally prepared for the next challenge....Clinical placement at John Hunter Hospital.