It took me ages before i can write anything here... Probably the first entry in 2009.How pathetic.. i know...lol...
It is turning winter now.. It was sunny but very windy.. At the middle of a 40% assignment.. but just wanna write something because I am bored...
Woke up at 9 am today... Not my usual self... Coz I am so used to sleep in till
11 am nowadays.. Have buddhist meeting at 1 pm.. and so i thought..Went breakfast with my friends at Goldbergs at 10.30am in Darby St.. It was nice.. but too much bacon,sausages, eggs and oil.. it does not sound that fantastic to me like my friends had beamed about...
We had a great time.... It has been a long time when we really sit down, talk and spend time together.. most of us are on placements now... And will soon go our separate ways by the end of this year...
When we were almost done with our breakfast, there is this hairy man coming in with his buddy friends for breakfast.. I had a really good laugh with my friends and he was looking at me, smiling.. Probably thinking:' What is this Asian gal thinking about me? Mayb I am too hot for her??'
LOL.. I was in stitches because he has hairy chest! haha.. Then when you look side ways, he has hairy armpits too.... Then I told my friends that we are looking at a gorilla eating breakfast in the cafe now.... Then I kept on laughing... I just couldn't stop.. Am i mean? I think I am.. Lol... too excited about hairy people.
After that, we went by a couple of shops and there is this make up bag that i really fancied.. But it was 50 bucks.. damn!!
Too expensive for me... Lol...coz it will be like 140 MYR.... nah.. too pricey..
Then i was looking at the bag.. then putting it back again.. Going back and fro like for 3 times around that shop deciding whether I should get it...
Then i went through a couple of rings in a basket with 75% off the original price.. YAY! and so i thought.. There is this plastic yellowish crystal-like ring from the basket and I tried it on.. then my friends just blurted:'Are you from Mars or something? Wearing that?'
Sadly, I did not get anything from that shop..
I was checking my sms in the car until I was filled with guilt for saying no to the Australian lady who was suppose to fetch me to buddhist meeting at 1 pm. My friend was very kind to give me a lift to Elermore Vale and I reached there at 2 pm. I was late. But when I tried to get into the community centre, It was locked up. I called the lady again and then she was laughing away saying that the meeting on Saturdays has always been on 3 pm...
SHIAT!!! Sigh.. I was amazed by myself with the memory of a gold fish.. BUGGER!! How could I forget?? Now I am stranded here like a dork... looking at bunch of youngsters playing soccer in the fields...
However, I made it to the meeting... And this really reminds me of something.
Me, being a SGI buddhist need to always remind myself of the vow I've made for Kosen Rufu; as I will not always be that lucky for the lady to remind me of that vow...
Maybe it sounds ridiculous and serious to you...but buddhism is all about fighting for happiness for other people and yourself. To have compassion and gratitude to whatever happens in your life. Let's say you had a bad day because you spilled coffee on your shirt or the dog had bitten your shoes off.. We must have the composure to say 'thank you' to all these trivial matters happening to us, although it is always easy to blame on that dog, or having the habit of asking 'Why is this happening to me?'
Also, to have the courage and capacity to say 'thank you' from our hearts to annoying people.. Haha.. And all that needs practice and sincerity from faith, practice and study; in addition for the efforts we poured into kosen rufu.
I admit I have been slacking lately in terms of human revolution, in other words, personal development....
So after the meeting, I re-determined again.
1) Score well in my upcoming assignment.I don't care if it is a tough one
2) Tell my boss next week about the number of shifts that I can work. Coz I was scared of telling him.. and I do not know why...
3) To enjoy my upcoming placement without fear no matter how hard it may be.
4) To show actual proof through my personal victories by deepening my faith, practice and study.
That is all for now... today I re-determined, which is the highlight of the day depsite the good time I had with my friends...because the torch in my heart was lightened up... for good. And I feel alive : )
